oh, ok.

i am more awake then i have ever been in my entire life. not something i have ever really aspired to but, finally, here i am and there’s no turning back. interestingly, i’m excited.

randy even.

yeah i got questions. i love/loathe them with all my heart.

just in case your day is as slow as mine…..

in a zig zag starting from the top left:

gloves-long and lean, sunglasses, glasses, empty gum, gum, cigarettes, scarf, hat, totes umbrella free from mcbone, meds, trash, kiel’s cucumber oil, a picture of a strange boy with a strange santa that tod stewart gave me at christmas, underpants pouch given to by adam containing work keys and a compact powder that i never use, phone, camera, wallet, change, date book, the buttons that immediately fell off my jacket the day i bought it, 2 pencils- one sharp and one broken, correspondence kit complete with stamps (the limited sports car edition) return address stickers free from the american cancer society and cards, 3 lip glosses- lancombe clear, bobbie brown clear & avon nude, 5 blue bic lighters (becasue there may come a time when kiss plays “beth” right in front of you), lip balm, business cards with my name on them and everything.

the warm sun on my face in january
a crimson dragon under the manhattan bridge
the smell of sammy’s fur after a long walk outside

my heart opened for a minute, and as i tried to take it all in i cried.