my new thing
12-Jan-05
i didn’t take this picture. it’s from my new favorite thing.
i’m not so into taking picutes right now. it’s like, it’s too hard to get one of the two cameras i have on me at all times out of my bag. i really regret not getting a picture of the crushed “HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!” tiara i saw on the street 2 days sfter the fact. other then that, i’m not seeing the new in things just now.
i’ve been really into getting the right perfume lately. obsessed. went to fresh to buy a christmas gift and i ended up smelling like covered up puke becasue of all the spritzing.
anyway…another time i went into bigalow pharmacy because i thought they might have a perfume that i used to wear that’s now hard to find cuz it’s so not in fashion — DIORISSIMO. you know, by christian dior? yeah.
yeah well, knowing full well that it wasn’t what i wanted, but i just wanted to spend some money, i bought the wrong one — DIORESSENCE –the only one they had. no tester. no nothin’ just give it to me NOW. i didn’t care that it wasn’t what i wanted and i didn’t care that i might as well have flushed the 40 dollars down the crapper andwhen am i ever going to get out of debt and how could i be so stupid stupid stupid….
sowalking down the street like a child with a bag of candy i opened it and sprayed it on my wrist. i might like the smell. anyway… sprtiz sprits wave wave..let it soak in…it smells JUST like my favorite aunt who live in arizona. i mean JUST like her. i had flash-backs to the sound of her indian jewelry bracelets clinking as we made fresh peach leather and drank the juice she called nectar, to television shows about oras and past life theory and other spiritual concepts having nothing to do with mr. jesus h. christ. happy happy moments that seemed so goddam far away as i walked down freezing cold 6th avenue avoiding the sad puppies in the window at the pet store. wrist to my nose. tears down my face
